I find myself obsessing about my moods. If I don't wake up happy, I'm unhappy. I'm not embracing the day; I'm funkified, whatever. And then I think I just exacerbate the situation by being unhappy with myself.
One cannot be happy all the time. Today I compared how adults and children handle this fact of life. Adults deal with unhappiness or bad moods by internalizing it, taking it out on others, or, most intelligently, running very hard. Kids, however, have temper tantrums and display their emotions by kicking, screaming, making a scene, and, by others' standards, being a bit ridiculous. At least they are making fools of tjust themselves as they voice the shittiness they are experiencing inside.
I have decided that I am going back to this method. It just makes more sense. Get rid of the repression, enter the expression! I'm going to make sure everyone knows how I feel, and when I'm feeling shitty, even if for no good reason, I'll throw a tantrum. You know, throw my sippy cup on the ground, break a toy, kick the dog. Damnit, I may even throw my carrot sticks at you if you're pissing me off.
Maybe this is why people go crazy. They try to acclimatize themselves to the proper way to interact with others and display themselves in this world. There becomes this "good" and "bad" way of expressing oneself. I think we should just try expressing fully, joyfully or shittily, all the moods that pass as we experience being human. Embrace the shit; don't deny it.
After all, everyone has a bad day now and then. Let's keep it now and then and allow ourselves to throw our tantrums.
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